No, I Don’t Regret Loving You

No, I Don’t Regret Loving You
by Jessie Anne Harrison

Not because it was a steppingstone to better water. Nor because I miss the current you pulled me under. (I craved the roar and the pressure, then.) It’s not the tug of nostalgia’s tide. That old love was not a bucket I added to the pool my lily pad now rests in. It wasn’t a steppingstone. I can no longer tell Pacific water from Atlantic. Leave that to the scientists. I love you then. I love him now. I’ll take him to that river we washed up in and show him the rock I cut my foot on. I’ll feel no shame. I’ll stand comfortably in that water again. What evaporates from the surface will water the bluebonnets next year. I stamped my boots in those puddles. I’ll pick the violets in the spring. It was always changing. It will always be the same.

 


Jessie Anne Harrison (she/her) has had a fascination with poetry since she was nine. As she pursues an MFA in Creative Writing from Arcadia University, she explores themes of faith, identity reconstruction, and grief. Her work is previously featured in The Eunoia Review and Mobius: Journal for Social Change. She can be found on Instagram @allthebestjess.

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